my-colors

From the beginning of this week I felt a need to say something, something important. I wanted to inspire my readers to see the world more positively, but after I visited some blogs on this server, I saw many articles where the authors wrote about their painful life, self-harm, depression… I realized that there is no meaning in writhing about how life is beautiful, because it is not! But at the same time it is not as bad as we often make it. So now, I want to say just one thing - what we need to survive, to have the power to go forward, is a DREAM, that waits for us after the corner. Some realistic desire on which we can concentrate and which realization will become so important to us, that we will not let others get in it the way. How this relates to self-harm? Easily, when we hurt ourselves, we give others around us power over us… they can judge us, gossip or proclaim that we are insane… For me, one of the hardest times in my life, were when I was in elementary scho...

It was the first day of my last school year on high school. I was the class leader for the past three years and I can say that this post did not help me to be very popular. But that day, the beginning of the year, was my chance to change it all… I had a totally new sexy image, high heels and a confident look on my face. And it was working! The cutes guy from our class was standing in front of our classroom, and he was checking me out! I felt that this can really be my year! He looked at me with his perfect cheekbones and teasing smile: "Hi." I almost melted, but kept my cool confident look: "Hi…" BUM! That was it, without a warning… I slipped on the waxed floor and hit the door! Needless to say, that Mr. Charming had a good laugh at me and the only thing that left for me was to bang my head to my desk, when I sat down. My perfect opportunity for a great new year went out with that door I hit. *** The next day, one of my classmates, had her birth...